One of the most learning moments in my life was when I honestly looked at my faults. Everyone has them and to not look at them and analyze we aren't doing ourselves any favors. In fact, to not honestly evaluate them is even more damaging.
When it finally dawned on me to understand my faults and to learn from them, it opened doors. I felt relieved to accept change that was needed. I feel I am now a better friend, wife, mother, daughter--you name it.
Over-analytical, self-absorbed, judgmental, temperamental. These are a few and by far the worst.
I over analyze just about everything. It didn't get me far in English class as far as reading short stories. I saw irony where it didn't exist and thought allegories contained ten times more the symbolism than it did. I also take things much too personally. If I send an email I worry why I'm not getting a response, if a text message isn't answered I think they don't want to talk. Now it's understanding that I need to trust those who love me and be present so that I know who those people are. This fault is still more present than the others. I'm working on it, and do realize I will always have something to improve upon. It's human and what makes us beautiful.
Everyone is self-absorbed, no? Okay, so maybe this isn't so bad. However, I began understanding a while ago that I have the tools to help others and therefore, I should start. It's time to start donating more than I already do--both time and goods. I also think that once I had kids it weakened but then you start to think to yourself what a wonderful mom you are (ofcourse after you have told yourself how lousy you are). Everyone, for the most part, think they are living the right way. I sometimes have to remind myself that this life is right for me. This blog is somewhat self-absorbed...on to the next one!
Judging others is nasty. Yet, I've done it, I do it and am making a very concerted effort to lessen and even stop it. "It is up to us not to judge what result an action deserves but to observe closely how the cause-and-effect universe works, then to model our behavior accordingly."-Deepak Chopra
I can't think of anything more hurtful than to judge others. It sucks when I'm being judged. Now it is the time to surround myself with those who are not toxic in this sense.
Ahhh, my temper. It can be detrimental. In the past, I would snap pretty easily. And who do I cast it on? Those closest to me. I have, however, apologized when it's needed. I think my husband would be proud to say that this has been something I have turned around quite well over the past few years. But, like I said, I still have work to do and that's okay.
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